At the time of the COVID-19 quarantine, I was roughly 190 pounds (and am 5’5). Compared to many other Americans, I was still thinner than very many people. I considered myself "thicc" as they like to call it. I wasn't even remotely aware that my BMI was in the very first stages of obesity, but then reality hit me. I knew that I needed to take responsibility.
As I was self aware of my weight, I developed an entirely new perspective. I still remember the very first time I stepped on the scale and saw 190 pounds. My heart sank and I fell into a pretty deep depression from that day and on.
I struggled with feelings of worthlessness and anxiety every single day. All hope seemed lost until I confronted the reality that nothing was going to improve until I took responsibility and tried to adopt a healthier lifestyle. I knew that my high BMI was nobody’s fault or choice but my own. I knew that I was the only person who could change for the better and do something about it.
It was from that day that I started to take long walks around the neighborhood. I walked every single day for over a year and I ate nothing but salads (which I still do today, even if not to the same extreme). I would walk until my legs could hardly manage. I started to see results in several months; my weight eventually hit 180, and then 170, and finally, my current weight of 160 pounds.
Over time, I quit feeling ashamed and began to feel very proud of myself. Sure, my body still isn’t perfect, but I have come a very long way. None of this happened over night; I killed myself outside and in the gym so many times to make it where I am today. It has taken so much hard work and dedication to get my physique to its current level. This journey is a constant struggle between my temptations and my sense of responsibility. Aside from the weight loss itself, I also feel very proud of my ability to resist junk food. I have never been better at it!
The photos above are extremely telling of just how far I have come since the beginning of my journey. I have never felt better about myself and my life has drastically improved since I have taken action.
For the time being, I think my biggest fitness inspo/physique goals would be that of Laetitia Ky. I love that muscular look. I don't want to go all out with muscles or anything, but I want my body to be a good balance of soft and muscular. I hope that makes sense, I am not sure if it does.
11 months gym progress ! About 11 kgs (25lbs) gained !#bulking pic.twitter.com/EBYjlBw7UB— laetitia ky (@laetiky) May 6, 2022
I've gained 20kilos (45lbs) in one year and half with weightlifting ! I explain here how https://t.co/zuIMpl3dUr !!— laetitia ky (@laetiky) November 14, 2022
The strength i gained is INCREDIBLE. I feel badass. I already see the "muscles aren't feminine, you are loosing your femininity" comments... i do not care. 😘 pic.twitter.com/7hNktje24c